Renegade Craft Fair is six days away. I am not as ready as I should be. My lack of preparedness is not due to a mismanagement of time, but to dealing with an unforeseen circumstance being more time consuming than it should be. My brother, dad, and I are supposed share the responsibility of helping my mom recover, but it seems that my brother and dad are not cut out for it. It’s causing a lot of family drama, and I am so stressed out and just doing my best to not explode all over every one.
When I called my mom today to see what she wanted for lunch she sounded funny. I asked her what was wrong, and it turned out she had been throwing up. The only other time she has thrown up since getting home was the first night when my brother ate the dinner I brought her. My dad made her something to replace what I brought her, but it was too insignificant to handle the pain meds so she spent the night throwing up. Today my dad wanted to make her Mother’s Day breakfast, so I didn’t go over early to make her breakfast like I normally do. Again, it wasn’t substantial enough, so she ended up throwing up. He ruined what should have been a special day for her. There have been other incidents, but I’m already crossing over into T.M.I. land. My brother and dad are not bad people, just a little clueless about how much pain she is in, and what recovery should look like for her. They seem to think that since she’s home from the hospital everything is cool. She got a new heart valve. They had to break her ribs to do the surgery. Her recovery time is two months, and she hasn’t even been home two weeks! It seems like simple math to me. Sigh. I just have to remind myself we all handle stress differently. Josh and I delivered her a “double rainbow” bouquet of roses.
I’m still using Sierra‘s
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WORKING ON: Renegade Craft Fair – Austin prep.
THINKING ABOUT: How frustrated I am that my booth is not going to look the way I planned, that I had to skip printing kids tees, and that some new goodies will not be at Renegade because there just isn’t enough time.
ANTICIPATING: May 19th. It will be day two (and the last) of Renegade Craft Fair and I will be seeing Toad the Wet Sprocket (one of my fave bands!) that night.
LISTENING TO: Chromeo. I needed some upbeat music.
EATING: Lots of pizza and candy…can we say stress eater?
THANKFUL FOR: Sierra. She is my anchor right now. In the little over a year that I’ve known her, it has been great to see how well our friendship works. When she was crazed prepping for Pool I was able to help her out, and now that I’m overwhelmed with everything going on, she is there to keep me calm and focused. I like that she’s a fixer, like me. I respond well to making action plans.
PLANNING FOR: Renegade Craft Fair… and the end of it so I can take care of my mom without being stressed out on the prep time I’m losing.
READING: Food packaging. Shopping for someone with diabetes sure has me reading those labels. Did I mention my dad bought my mom a six-pack of coke and some pan dulce? Of course I took them away from her, and reminded my dad that I had stocked their fridge with sugar-free jell-o and pudding. Oh! And @80sDonDraper on Twitter… the tweets are pretty funny.
WATCHING: Not much of anything. Sorta still on Mad Men, but I haven’t had time for watching anything. I still haven’t even seen Doctor Who this week. GASP!